Tuesday, November 18, 2014

It's done

I have finally submitted my first assignment today and the HUGE amount of relieve...I totally can feel it at this moment. Actually, I have finished my assignment since yesterday and I thought, for my self-reward I was gonna watch some Running Man episode so that I can laugh my ass out alone in my room lol but I ended up having green tea latte and a small glass of beer at night. The beer was actually a bad idea but you know, you only live once hahaha. Okay, not that funny actually. 

This Research & Enquiry assignment that I had to do was actually pretty tough for me and I had some struggles because looking for references and trying to think critically in a lot of aspect was just soooo damn hard. Not forgetting the part when I have to write my paper in the 'academic writing way' for the Critical Analysis part. My colleague, who's one year ahed of me in this course told me I wouldn't have any problem doing this because my command of English is good. Well, I just want to clarify that it doesn't mean I can write well. I mean, yes I read a lot but writing has always been something that I struggle with too since the high school days. So the entire two months+ was just tough but I'm just grateful that I did not gave up too easily when the going gets tough. 

I've another assignment that is due on the first week of December and with only two weeks left, I haven't actually started anything yet *yikes* Spent too much time on the Research & Enquiry assignment so another two weeks of struggle, but definitely a 'better' kind of struggle than before haha. So again, wish me luck on this :) I had my first Skype chat with my tutor last week and he had gave me good input on the project that I want to work on so again, wish me luck on this :) I've got some other personal things that I wanted to do like start my Christmas painting which I REALLY should do it before it gets too late to send Christmas cards for friends and family. December is gonna be a helluva month and probably also another month where $$$ will just go poof in an instance. Anyway, I shall *try* to sleep early tonight, get some rest from all the late night working and kickstart the second part of my assignment. 

I did this painting of a fox for my colleague while I was in the midst of finishing my assignment. The story behind this painting was I started painting it on Thursday night and halfway through painting it I realised I screwed up the body of the fox and had to re-do all over again so I stayed awake till almost 6am. The following day I experienced the worst shoulder and back ache but had to endure it and still go to work. The moral of the story is, while it is always good to have the chance to paint, do not follow my footsteps in staying up late when you know your body just can't handle it anymore. I can never learn my lesson pffft.

Thursday, November 06, 2014


In keeping my promise to paint Birthday cards for my friends, here is another one that I did last week while I am in the midst of trying to complete my MA studies assignment. If you don't already know, I always find inner peace while I paint. I guess it the part where mixing colours in my palette and seeing all the colours blended together gave me a sense of peace and comfort every time I do it. Of course, I would paint all day if I can instead of having to read books/journals for my research haha. Always gonna be a procrastinator lol.

Anyway, I don't really paint furry animals that much cos I'm not very good at it but I am satisfied with this outcome. If you must know, this painting is heavily inspired by the movie 'November Man' haha. On the other note, I've been pulling an all-nighter since Monday just so that I have more time to work on my research. I know I've been talking non-stop about my studies but seriously, this first assignment that I am currently doing felt so crucial that it is THE most important thing that I have to complete now. The fact that I writing is so not my forté, it is gonna be though for me to write complete the Critical Analysis paper. I cannot believe how HARD this is, like I am not even kidding you know. It is so damn hard. Dear God, I ask for your guidance and love to help me go through this. Trying to do so many things at the same time...not even sure if there is enough time for me or not but I must persevere and work hard before my holidays :)

P/S: Slowly recovering from sore throat and cough. My voice is almost back to normal and my cough have subsided :)

Thursday, October 30, 2014


That moment when you're sick but you have no one but yourself to depend on...this feeling kinda suck *sigh* Being back here in the Peninsula has led me being caught by the sick bug. It's my second time being sick this year and I guess I have broken my record since I did mentioned that I hardly ever get sick. But I think it's the age thing. The older you get, your health feels like a ticking bomb now. 

Had to conduct a class today that requires me to talk a lot...not an easy task man. The more I talk the more manly my voice is. Really didn't expect to be sick at this moment when I really x 100 need to get my arse back to continue my study/research cos the deadline so so effing near now...just 2 more weeks to finish up the annotated bibliography and critical analysis! (slowly going on a panic mode now) But on the other hand, I really do need a good rest and get enough sleep or else my entire body will not function the way I wanted it to be. Thinking about all these pending stuff to do is really making my head hurts haha. Okay, not gonna ask for any pity here but gotta work hard and make no excuses even if I am sick now haha. Hoepfully I will feel better next week AMEN.

This new MV and song by Crush just came out today. This song did not dissapoint <3

Saturday, October 25, 2014

Hello I'm home

Guess where I am? Well, actually I am back here in Penampang and this year it is already my 5th time being back home...now you know where most of my $$$ goes to. It is to purchase air tickets! *sigh* The reason to be back this time around was to attend an old primary school friend's wedding reception. Raymond was one of my childhood friends that I've known since we were in our primary school days, we went to a different high school and eventually he continued his studies in the UK and has been staying there ever since. But we still managed to keep in touch, of course thanks to technology. Gonna blog about the wedding in another post because last night (the reception) was so so fun! But yeah, gonna wait till the next post. 

It was also a good time for me to be back, albeit just a few days because since I am currently doing my MA research, I made a visit to the public library and make use of the resources there. I'm thankful that I am able to find at least two related sources that I can include it in my bibliography research. Would be better if I can spend more time in the library though. Once I am back in the peninsula, I gotta die die put all my energy and mind on this research as the deadline is drawing near. Oh man...I am really struggling with this I can't even explain. 

Anyway, all the fun I am currently having is gonna end soon as I am flying back tomorrow. Why does all the good things must come to an end this fast? My mum flew to Taiwan for vacation and I wasn't able to spend more time with her and even celebrate her birthday because the both of us had clashing times. Kinda felt bad now but I hope my mum is enjoying herself in Taiwan. I shall be back in December. Well, just a quick update from my own comfort room. It is ALWAYS good to be home but you know, the war hasn't end yet so once again, I gotta go and fight for my own battle and leave my comfort zone. Shucks, but as I always say, "You gotta do what you gotta do "

Got this room all by myself in the library to do my research. Reading up old journals and articles. I may look like I'm very intellectual, but actually it's so effing HARD dammit.

Visited the tamu. As always, gave me so much joy just to walk around the market.
Attended my (grand) niece's kindergarten graduation day. Can't believe she's gonna be in Primary 1 next year! Congratulations Ophelia...when you feel like they are so big now, you will also feel you're getting old.
Odessa also performed.
Family picture. All five of them :)
Came home and witnessed a minor flood in my cousins' crib. Oh man, after what they've gone through in the past few weeks due to the flood, I hope it won't happen again.

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Go veggies

Painted these veggies before I started my MA studies and now I've no choice but to take a break from painting which is kinda sad cos I have planned to paint some danish pastries next :( My colleague suggested that I try painting bitter gourd and when I found a nice reference of it I was wondering if I am able to paint the bitter gourd to look like a 'real' bitter gourd haha. Well, challenge accepted hence here's the result. Actually, I like the sweet potatoes the best. I gotta spare my time to paint an animal for a friend so...will post the outcome soon.

Now I realise how TOUGH it is to juggle your time with doing part time studies while you have a full time job. The time where I want to sit and get truly focused on my research is not enough. Then are other things that you wanna do as well like go to the movies, hang out with your friends, etc. Just gotta remind myself to take one step at a time...but so hard lah :P