Friday, August 12, 2016

Almost...


Finally received my mini guidebook after it was printed and  perfect binded. This was my second re-print because I wasn't very satisfied with the first one that I printed. The choice of paper wasn't what I initially wanted so...I kinda had to sort everything out again from ordering new stack of paper, refining some typo error in my layout and also adding another last minute spread...all in a span of 5 days. Thank the lucky stars everything was going on quite smoothly expect for yesterday when I had to go back and forth to the printers because of some file formatting error. Using the latest version of Adobe CC is not always the best choice because the iMac that I am using in the office couldn't really support the software and it is soooo slow to even activating the Adobe softwares now. 

Had to resort to use one my student's macbook since she was still using the CS6 version. Just so thankful that she was there at the right time. Thank you! Anyway, this is definitely not the end yet...still working on my word statement writing which I have 2221 words to go as I am typing this and then there are two more things to complete by next week. It's crazy to think how far I've came and everything is gonna end real soon! It is definitely going to be a bittersweet feeling for me haha.

The Olympic Games can be VERY distracting especially when I felt like I just wanted to watch it every single day. I think I've watched quite a number of swimming events because hello, Michael Phelps! He was like the ultimate favourite since Beijing 2008 so seeing his 'comeback' is so so worth it. Then there's diving which was so interesting to watch and learn to analyse how to see a good and perfect dive...I am still in the learning progress lol. Malaysia won silver at the 10m Women's Synchronised Diving. Go Pandelela! So much more that I have yet to watch...badminton, athletics and rhythmic gymnastics too. Okay, I better stop and continue my writings now.  As how the Koreans say, "Hwaiting!!!" 

P/S: Sending my mini guidebook to my tutors in the UK tomorrow. Wish me luck haha.

Thursday, August 04, 2016

That lingering thought

You know when you have finally completed an assignment, and then suddenly, you have these lingering thoughts that is playing with your head? Stuff like, 'I could've done better or if only I have enough time or if only I didn't procrastinate too much...and all the 'What Ifs' that you can ever think of. I've been getting this kind of thoughts for as long as I can remember and I am sure I am not the only one to have all these thoughts. I know my students do too. Yesterday, when I went to the print shop to get my major project printed, I was having a chat with my student and told him that I really do wish I could have done better with my project and I also wish that I have more drawings to show but because of time constrain, I really have to get everything printed and not put my focus on the book anymore. I still have my writing, work and development and a freaking video to do and shoot so you know that I must continue working on the second part of my major study. 

But yeah..all the 'What Ifs' thoughts are still lingering around until now as I am typing this, I kept re-looking at my guidebook print mockup and figuring out all the things that I could've done better. When will I be able to be satisfied with my own work. That is seriously one of the things that I'm sure you know I am still battling with *sigh* Although I know that the entire grade for my major project is not solely determined by the 'guidebook' but still...I can't help wishing that I could've done better. I guess I just have to convince myself that I have already done my best. The last two months was dead crucial and I know how much time and effort that I have put into finishing my guidebook. Oh, man...I don't even know what I feel right now haha. No point of turning back or regret now cos I know that I'll eventually overcome it :) 

On the other note, yesterday morning when I wanted to open my InDesign file to fix some typo error in my guidebook, the file decided to kill itself...meaning the file was damaged and I couldn't open it at all no matter how many times I tried and every time I wanted to open it, InDesign decided to crash itself too so I knew that I was doomed! Well, not entirely because thank God that I have already exported my designs into PDF format (so that I can bring it to the print shop) the night before so it was indeed a lucky thing for me to at least have a backup file. You know I constantly remind my students to always back up their files every time but never would I thought I am now the unfortunate victim :( Definitely lesson learned. Getting my stuff printed out felt like a HUGE relief to myself because I know that I am almost there to the finishing line. Just hoping everything will be A-OK in the next two weeks before my deadline.  

As much as I was feeling a little disappointed with myself yesterday, I was actually quite touched by one of my student who met me to submit her final work and at the same time gave me a bag of Famous Amos cookies! Very surprised by it because I hardly ever receive anything from my students and I don't expect them to give me anything as long as they do well in their studies then it's all good (so humble lol) but yeah, my student said thank you to me for the guidance and teaching her. Honestly, that felt really nice haha and it's always nice to be appreciated once in a while. Wow this is probably like my longest post in a very long while! I told you I have so many things to say but just can't utter it out sometimes. Oh well, I gotta go and start my writing now...another 3000 words omg!

Thank you!!!
WIP: Designing the cover before my file was damaged.
Off to print!



Monday, August 01, 2016

What is sleep?


At this rate, I don't know what is sleep anymore because it's been weeks since I can manage to get a good and proper sleep and today, it totally hit me that the month of August is finally here. Which means I have exactly 22 days till my D-DAY: THE ULTIMATE FINAL DEADLINE. I am definitely worried AF because I still have tons to do and I am not even sure if I could really finish everything on time BUT I just have to do it, no excuses but just get it done and over with. In case you're wondering, I am still pretty much alive (not sure anyone cares tho haha) and have been trying to get as much work done as possible every single day. But as you know, I have to attend my full time job as well so you would know that it's not as easy as you think. I feel like I wanted to say so many things here but sometimes, even getting your own friends and family to hear you out of give you some words of encouragement can be hard so...I better just put all these feelings aside first. But if by any chance you are reading this, do wish me luck cos I really need it. Thanks. 

Sunday, July 24, 2016

Expectations


Sometimes I expect too much.

Wednesday, May 11, 2016

Finally an update!

Just thought I'll do a little update on what's been going on with me...although there's nothing much except for...I think people who are still coming to read my 'rusty' blog would've known the answer by now haha. But yeah, currently my life really do revolves around work+study and added a little time for social and outings. Anyway, things that I've been up to:

1. MA Studies
I'm sorry but to spazz you with yet another update on my studies. I KNOW I am so tired of talking about this as well. I recently mentioned to a friend that I 'kinda' regret making decision to continue my study...but to be honest, I'm not entirely regretting it 100% cos I see that this could be a good platform for me if I am planning to venture out in the education field, cos obviously I *don't* see myself staying in the current company forever. But, probably the only regret is that I did not plan to continue with furthering my studies sooner. I mean, unless you are really good in managing your time and willing to give up your social life, then it will be okay to study while having a full time job, but unfortunately that is not the case for me since I procrastinate a hell lot and errr...I rather watch Korean dramas haha. Last month, I FINALLY submitted my 4K words of essay, you can refer to the previous post to know what topic that I decided to do my research on. So basically, I am pretty much done with the first half of my module. It was EXTREMELY hard for me dealing with this particular module because I have mentioned before that writing is not my forte and the struggle was definitely real. But it's finally over...at least for now. Praying really hard that I will pass this subject cos I do not want to repeat this all over again *crosses fingers* As of now, I have one more module to finish but luckily it's more coursework than research so I have about 3 more months to get it done before I am truly free from my studies :) I am supposed to continue with my last module now but I had to make way to get some stuff done at work hence I promise myself that I will go right back into it next week. I just can't wait for all these to be over!

2. Work
I had a presentation to my superiors on Monday and because I had to present a total of 5 subjects, I was rushing like mad trying to finish my presentation slides last week. We were notified quite late about this presentation so no choice but to rush and get everything done before the presentation. But so glad that it is finally over!  The new semester is starting again next week and as much as I wish it won't start in another week, life has to go on lol. Hopefully the new batch of students are gonna be good in order to make my life more peaceful and easier haha. I don't have much to say about work because it has been pretty much the same as of late. Don't know if it's a good thing or not but...one thing that I can say is, there are times that I actually felt like there's gonna be a real 'civil war' here, just waiting for it to happen for real.

3. Brush Lettering
This is something that I have been practicing on everyday basis and currently been so passionate about. I know I haven't been drawing/painting a lot lately due to work and study but I spared some time here and there to practice my lettering so that I can improve better. This is also something that I am quite proud of because I definitely can write better now compared to 2 years back.  Well, it's not exactly a BIG achievement or anything but it is still something worth for me to say 'good job!' to myself. Yes, I have no shame hahah. I recently got contacted by my senior from my college to help her with some lettering for her wedding invites. It's really nothing much but still, very thankful for the opportunity and trusting my not-so-pro-yet skills! Probably gonna do a special post about my lettering 'journey' one of these days.



4. Korean Dramas
Wow, don't even get me started with Korean dramas cos I can talk about the recent drama that I watched and it was just sooo...I LOVE IT haha. So, back in January I was watching this rom-com Korean drama called 'Oh My Venus' which I enjoyed and liked it very much cos the cast was great and the storyline revolves around adult people. Totally recommend this drama if you want a feel good Korean drama to watch. Then, in early March, another drama called Descendants Of the Sun came out and initially I did not have plans to watch it because I wanted to 'focus' on my assignment. But unfortunately, I gave it and decided to watch it anyway. Ended up liking the drama so much that I got very attached to this drama and kept wanting more every week lol. The main cast was perfect. I've always thought that Song Jong Ki is too pretty for my liking but I guess after he went for military, everything just changed and how on earth did he became so manly after that???? Song Hye Kyo, the lead actress is definitely one of those woman with eternal beauty. She's just so beautiful I can't even stop staring at her in the drama lol and she's one lucky actress to have acted with a bunch of very good looking actors as well like Won Bin in Autumn in My Heart (remember her?) and also with Zo In Sung in That Winter, the Wind Blows.

What I liked about Descendants Of the Sun is that both lead actor and actress have great chemistry and they are open in letting each other know their feelings...which I find very mature and just nice to watch :) Plus Captain Yoo Shi Jin's killer lines are cheesy but so swoon-worthy! You know what, if I was given the chance to write about this drama for my studies, I probably could ace it hahaha. Anyway, I won't blabber much about this drama but I will say this is the best k-drama that I watched so far this year. Oh, and the soundtrack is DAMN good too. Recommending the song called 'Everything' by the singer Gummy. Definitely my most favourite song in the drama but all the songs are great!
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5. Music
Been listening to various type of music these days, from the commercial ones on the radio, to some hipster ones from Spotify/Soundcloud and of course some good K-HipHop and R&B as well. I recently am so into this Korean R&B artist called DEAN. I can't remember how I discovered him but I think it was probably from Tumblr. The first song that got me hooked was 'Pour Up' featuring the talented Zico. Then I started doing my research on him and wanting to know as much stuff as possible hehe. Anyway, LOVE his voice and all his songs in his new EP. I recommend this artist if you are looking for something fresh to listen to in K-R&B genre. D (half moon) is my most favourite song in his 130 mood : TRBL EP, totally can listen to this all day :)


6. Misc
Other than that, been hanging out with my cousins and friends from time to time. It's not as often as it used to be like before but yeah, being with friends and family is definitely good for the soul, in my case it is a good stress reliever to not to think about my hectic life. It's been hard for me to pour out or talk a lot about my personal things or feelings here, I guess I am already very used to just keeping it inside and just let it mess up my mind. It's not exactly a good thing cos you know, there are times that I can just break down or cry for no reason in one of those late nights. It seems to happen quite a lot these days but...well, things are not how it used to be. Life still needs to go on. I also still can't promise if I am able to update that much but if there is any silent readers, I am not even sure if there is tho haha...thank you for still reading this blog! Actually, the stuff that I post here are getting less interesting and there's like no depth in whatever I wanted to say hahahah. I'm telling you, due to the insane amount of things and stuff that I had to read/research on, I think my brain has seriously gone haywire. While people can write so many good stories in their blog, I am just writing random things like this. OH WELL.