Saturday, September 24, 2005
Living on a prayer
I remembered when I watched She’s All That for the first time; it was in my next-door cousins home back in 1999. I love that movie in an instant then Anne and I will watch it over and over again. The same goes to movies like Ten Things I Hate About You and Can’t Hardly Wait. I’ve watch both the movies more than five times I think. Ahh…those were the days. When my cousins bought their first VCD player, I was at their house all the time watching movies with them. Kinda miss those nice days though.
Just a while ago, I’ve got the chance to watch She’s All That again! I still love that movie and oh, Freddie Prinze has a really REALLY nice lop-sided smile. Me like! And where is Rachael Leigh Cook now? Haven’t seen her in any movies these days.
One of my classmates, Hui Min is going to UK to further her studies next month. Met her one last time during dinner last night. It seems that everyone has a plan for the future now. I am still in a dazed and confused situation thinking what do I want to do next.
People are still (and I am not sure when are they going to stop) asking me that BONUS question which I seriously loathe and tired to answer anymore. I still get that question every single day. Do you know how awfully hard for me to answer that? And no matter how many times I complained about it, it still won’t stop. I guess once I am back in my hometown, there will be more and more people asking that question again.
I don’t understand but WHY? Why do I get this everyday? When I’ve finished my secondary school, there were only a few people who’ve asked what was my next plan.
Eh, Sabah really got job meh?
I don’t think Sabah got good advertising company wor…
Why you dowan to work in KL?
You go back Sabah and then what?
If in Sabah dun have job then how?
So you’ve found a job oredi?
You got go any interview?
Oh, finish college adi? So what’s your next plan lar?
Are you going to further your studies?
And it goes on and on and on and on…
Yes, I know some of my classmates has already found a job and some of them knew what are their next plan for the future. Well, it is because they are good decision makers. I can’t make a good decision therefore I do not know what am I gonna do next. A friend told me that my classmates should not influence me easily. Just because they’ve found a job and they have plans on their mind doesn’t mean that I should follow them too. My friend also told me to have more faith in myself and put everything to GOD. Okay, my friend does have a point there.
So I’ve been praying and asked GOD several times to show me a direction but it seems be no avail. Do I need to wait much longer for a miracle or do something about it? Sometimes I just wish that there were a gateway to heaven so that I could meet GOD personally and ask him everything that I wanted to ask.
Trying to figure out what is the next plan for the future just simply sucks when you just have no idea on what you’re going to do. I know I am writing crap again. But it’s just this thing has been in my mind for the longest time and when I tried to tell someone about it they doesn’t seem to understand what exactly is the problem that I am currently facing. Maybe my mother would know what to do…
To Hui min, all the best in your studies and hope you’ll gain more experience once you’re in Bristol. If can, go to Old Trafford to watch Man. United too. I am not really close to Hui Min but she’s always been a good friend lah. I really hope that this what’s-the- next-plan-for-the-future thing will give me a headache soon. I am just going to continue and pray that GOD will help me to get through this. I know he will. AMEN.
Mother is coming today. Hope it’s going to be good too.