You know what? There are things that I am not or don't intend to see but end up seeing it anyway. When this happen, I don't even know what or how to feel. If I feel angry, I don't think I have the right to feel that way. If I feel sad or hurt, I don't think it's necessary to be feeling like that. So what exactly do I feel? Confused maybe?
I guess at the end of all this, I should just let everything go...then maybe my mind won't get THIS confused anymore and probably stay on the mantra: Keep Calm and Carry On. Ughhh, hate feeling like this.